Begin

The holy week is finally over and everything can go back to its natural state.  I am finally where I wanted to be, on the "I don´t care" path.  It only took me a week but I am finally making my way to it.  I know that it is not ideal but it works for...

Choice

A friend here wrote a very powerful post, where reminds us that we have the power to choose whether we feel bad or not.  You are right my friend, we have the power, but sometimes we get lost on the way.  I know I do.  Sometimes it takes me a little...

Back Home

I am back home.  The holy week vacation time at my parents house on the beach has come to an end.  I am back home feeling relaxed and positive.  I always come back early because I like spending time at my home, and just doing nothing, and since it...

New Day

Today is a new day.  I feel better now, because there is one simple action to be taken: forget what I thought and go back to the beginning.  This is my task, my new hope.  I am going back to what I thought at the beginning of the year, when I thought...

Talk About Mad

Last night I went to bed angry, today I woke up hurt.  I hate this feeling, because it makes me seem vulnerable, and I don´t enjoy feeling like that.  I hate that I take things personally or maybe I am just being defensive.  I don´t know, but I get...

No Tomorrow

I guess I couldn´t wait until tomorrow, so here it goes.  Last week my bo and I, had a misunderstanding, and at the end it all worked out, but we decided to let ourselves know what is it that we don´t like about each other.  So, that we did, and what...

Nothing New

Nothing new for sure, everything seems the same with my relationship, and still, I am left out.  This weekend was supposed to be our weekend together, but guess again.  For today I am mad, because I can´t beleive that I am standing on the same place...

Bad Day

Have you ever had one of those days, when nothing is good, when you feel so bad, and so down that you have no idea what to do with yourself?  Well, today is that day for me.     You know, these past few months have been quite difficult whith the...

Myself

I woke up quite early this morning, well, not that I ever sleep well, but this morning was a thought that woke me up.  I was thinking how was my life a couple of years ago, and I started to feel so alone.  I know this is just a process that I have to...

Sadness

These holidays have been filled with sadness and mixed thoughts.  Somehow I feel that these past few months have been kind like a wake up call, because the fact that I don't have a real job helps me realize who my friends are and what my life is all...

To Care or Not to Care?

I can say, that I feel like I am being left out of my relation ship, again.  How many times is this going to happen? It all started last month, when there was a comic-on here in our country and we said we would go together... but what happens, he went...

Wrong...

Remember that I wrote about how I send and angry message to some woman? Well, I am starting to think that perhaps I shouldn't have.  I got sucked into something that I am not sure what is, and I got problems that I don't need.   Well, not...

Anger

Have you ever had a stranger talk bad about one of the members of you family?  I had, today, and you know, I got so mad, that I wrote this woman, I don't even know her, but I sent her some words.  I guess I wanted to let her know that she was talking...

Push

Sometimes all we need is a little push into what we want.  My push for today was that I have found out that, I may have judge somethings the wrong way.  I know that I tend to do that, but this time I went over the hill.     I was living my life...

Sadness

Sadness has striked me down this week, but there will be a good day after this, I am sure about that.  I thank you all for your support, for your reading, for being here for me.  This is more than my "friends" do, but it's all ok, and yes, there will...

Nothing

I beleive my life has been shattered into thousands of pieces today.  As I suspected my life means nothing and I am good for nothing.  I wrote a poetry book, but apparently I know nothing about books,  I am a photographer but I know nothing about...

Tired

Feeling tired seems to be my number one feeling these days.  I don't know why, but I go to bed tired, and I wake up tired, and the whole day is just like that.  I know the closing of the gym and the past of it has taken a toll on me, but how much...

Alone

Is what I have been feeling this week.  I don't know why, or maybe I do.  I know that I am a great listener, and I ejoy listening when people need it to, but it just hit me, noone truly listens to me.   Everything seems to be stoped and I feel...

Bad Dreams

Lately I have been having this bad dreams, they are about death and all sorts of bad stuff.  But last night I had the weirdest one.  I dream I was living with my ex, and fighting as usual.  I hated that time of my life, because it was when I couldnt...

Good Listener

I suppose I am a good listener, but sometimes I wish I had the guts to say what I feel or what I think, but then again, this is why I have a blog.  You can put you heart out here and there will be no judgement.   I like listening to my friends...

I Should Have Seen it Coming...

I should have, I definetly should have seen this coming but I didn't.  I bought the whole story about love at first sight and now I am screwed.  I should have known that dating a younger man is never a good idea, because in the end, you will end up...

Why?

Why do people change? Why is it that a relationship can't stay the same and that at some point one of the two parties will eventually fade away?   How does one deal with the fact that one has become invisible and there is nothing you can do...

Trust

I think there comes a time in all of our lives, when you need to learn how to trust.  You have to let go of you feelings and trust that what you are doing, and what other people are doing is ok.     Trust can be so easily lost, and once you have...

Dreams and Crisis

Our lives are filled with dreams, with hopes and with actions we wish we could actually do.  I beleive I have stept on the curve this time, and I have turned into mid life crisis.  I always thougt this was a myth, but no, it's very real.   I...